Anyone who has ever made something has been there -it could be cooking, sewing, drawing, carpentry- that moment when you are pretty sure this...this THING, whatever it is, will not work out. And you sit back, heave a pained sigh, and wonder whether you should, indeed, soldier on and finish regardless of less than desirable results, or just chuck it and put it far, far away from yourself.
I am having one of those moments. I have wanted to make "room shoes" for a long time. We don't wear shoes in the house at all, but sometimes I have a hankering for a little more structure and warmth than socks can give. Enter the Japanese "room shoe." This is a shoe worn inside, essentially a slipper, but less frumpy. There are many incredibly cute Japanese patterns for room shoes and now I've tried two of them. The first time I made a room shoe. Yes, singular. It was at the point where I had made one and tried it on that I knew I'd made a grave mistake. My foot, inside the room shoe, looked like a flattened, but giant, cloven hoof. It was shapeless. It was puffy. It was disgusting. It did not look anything like petite Japanese feet in shapely slippers. I was so disappointed. I was also resolved to try it again because I want these these shoes.
So, after last week's incredible colds, teething, night-waking, nap-boycotting, yelling, thrashing, de-cluttering upheaval, and sniveling to myself in bed while watching Fawlty Towers, I finally sat down to bang this out. And I got to almost the exact same point when I realized that this too was going to be a big old failure. Dang.
I cannot even bear to post pictures. I had taken out some of the padding because last time they were so overly padded it looked like my foot was being swallowed by a pillow. Now they look deflated, sad, limp. And they don't fit. I know Japanese patterns run small because Japanese people run small, my aunt tops out at 4' 10, and I think she's pretty average. This pattern seems huge and it's a medium. I might, might try to salvage this once my frustration is forgotten, but for right now, I'm on to other things. I certainly hope others are having more success with their sewing than I am right now!